37 – Janet - “I don't know why God is putting us through this misery. I can't cope and cry all the time.”
“Hello Michael, I am writing this with a very heavy heart and I am at the end of my rope. At this moment my son of 30 years old is missing over 3 weeks now. My husband and I don’t know what else to do to find him. What makes it worse is that we lost another son, 31 years old, 2 years ago. I don’t know why God is putting us through this misery. I can’t even cope, I cry almost all the time. I prayed so hard for him to come back that I can’t even pray anymore. I don’t know how I am going back to my job eventually and I hate that too. How am I going to get through this? People lose a lot in life, but most don’t lose their children. This is more than I can bear. Please help me.
EMAIL AFTER MY RECORDING: Dec 8th 5:50pm
Hello Michael, Thank you so much for the beautiful recording you made for me and my husband. You have truly encouraged me through this difficult time and gave me strength and faith to go on and put my children in God’s hands. I pray for my deceased son and that he is with Jesus now and in peace and that God will bring my other son home safely, but like you said, they are in God’s hands.
I will be doing the 90 day John 7:17 challenge which I think will help me also through this difficult time and Michael, I will be praying for you and that you get to see your children again and bring many people to Christ for salvation. Again, thank you for your prayers and help in increasing my faith in God. God Bless You
SECOND REPLY - Dec 11th 2018 9:14am
Hello Michael, I just wanted to tell you that I let my husband listen to your recording and after listening to you, he was moved to tears and said that it is the Holy Spirit working through this sad event. I feel in my heart that this is going to lead to a great glorifying of God no matter how it turns out. I will put my total trust in God, thanks to God working through you. God Bless you and your ministry. Thank you.”
Trusting Through the Tears: Finding God's Purpose in Loss
A mother's anguish over losing her children is a pain almost unbearable. Janet, the woman in this story, faces this agonizing reality, and the weight of this loss is heavy on her heart. Where do we turn when faced with such despair? The answer, though difficult to embrace in our pain, is trust. “Trust me,” God whispers in our spirit. These two simple words hold the key to navigating the darkest valleys of life.
Trusting God doesn’t mean denying our pain or pretending everything is okay. It means recognizing God's sovereignty and surrendering our desire to control the outcome. It’s echoing the words of Job, “The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised” (Job 1:21). This is the foundation of our Christian walk – a life of faith, even when circumstances make no sense.
We often cling tightly to the things of this world—possessions, careers, relationships. But particularly our children. We forget that God doesn’t have grandchildren. As it says in Psalm 24:1, "The earth is the LORD’s, and everything in it." Our children, His creations, ultimately belong to Him. He loves them even more fiercely than we do. This truth, though challenging, can be a source of comfort. Can we trust the One who created them to care for them, even when they are separated from us?
I too lost four of my five children, so I can identify with Janet’s pain. Surrender is crucial. We must loosen our grip on our children, releasing them into God's loving care. This doesn't mean we stop loving them or praying for them. It means we trust God's plan, even when we don't understand it. "Be anxious for nothing," Paul urges us in Philippians 4:6, "but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." This is where true peace is found – not in controlling the situation, but in surrendering it to the One who holds all things in His hands.
Janet’s story reminds us that God works for eternity, not just the here and now. He may be using this painful separation for a greater purpose, a purpose we can’t see in the midst of our tears. Like Hannah in 1 Samuel 1, who desperately longed for a child, we must pour out our hearts to God, trusting that He hears our cries and is working all things together for our good (Romans 8:28). He may be using this difficult time to draw you closer to Himself, to deepen your faith, and to prepare you for an eternity of joy with Him. Trust Him. Surrender to Him. He is worthy of your complete devotion.
