July 10, 2011

Very Discouraged About the Condition of the “Church”

I woke up feeling so heavy and discouraged about church.  I’m very concerned about “DOING” church and allowing anything to get in the way of the relationship that the Lord and I are having.  I’ve also been concerned that I feel like I’m having to settle for a church, rather than find one I’m excited about belonging to.  I feel like I’m going to have to look the other way on things that I don’t want to...that’s bad.  I told my step-dad that I feel going to church is going to take me backwards, not forwards.

I went to the Rock Church for my second visit, this morning.  Pastor Dave Melendez spoke, while Randy was out of town.  I loved the worship and I enjoyed and learned from the message.  I walked out, feeling relieved, like OK, this church will work.  I then decided to go to the newcomer’s class the same day to learn about the church.  It was done via video with Pastors Rusty and Leisa Nelson.  There was just something that didn’t set right with me.  I couldn’t put my finger on it, but when they started talking about sewing your seed, I was like, Oh, no God, not this church too.  By the time they had put a tremendous emphasis on membership, not spreading Gossip, and then said tithing was required of membership, I was like Ok, something’s not right.

I left church, very frustrated.  I asked God...”Ok, am I not supposed to be in this town?”  I begged him to tell me what was wrong and why I was having these feelings...was it me or were they legitimate feelings?  I got so frustrated that I even got a little to hot talking about it when my parents asked me how it went.   

I went to lay down by myself and I couldn’t stop thinking about it.  I picked up and googled the name Bishop Paul Zink, who is the Mentoring Overseeing Pastor of their whole church and to my surprise, there it was.  That is Brig Hart’s Pastor and it then it all made sense.  This church comes from a Prosperity Teaching Church...God was faithful to quickly show me what the problem was.  Now I just have to find another church.  Thank you God!