Ch. 28 The Beginning of Several Years of Intense Testing

Chapter 28

The Beginning of Several Years of Intense Testing

Deuteronomy 8:2 - “Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands.”

As we move forward in the story, I think it will be helpful for you if you don’t just enjoy the story, or look for what dramatic things will happen next, but that you take intentional notice to see how and why God was going to test me in so many different ways, to see if I would obey Him and remain faithful in everything.

This will increase your faith in God and your understanding of how He deals with some of His servants, especially those whom He wants to promote into a full-time Christian work. You’ll have a better understanding of what exactly transpired and how I started the work I do at RelentlessHeart.com.

I think you will be truly amazed at how thorough God was in testing me. The reason my ministry is having the kind of impact that it is, has absolutely nothing to do with me, or any other man, or ministry. It is simply because after God tested me, like He has many others, for several years, He found me faithful enough to allow His Spirit and power to rest on my ministry. That is why so many people are truly being changed by the work, and not just having their ears scratched. And all of this has nothing to do with me, in all my weakness, but in spite of my many weaknesses, the power of Christ is resting on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9 – Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

To this day, God still tests me and tries my faith. In fact, the entire year of 2018 turned out to be one of the longest and most difficult tests I’ve ever faced. It was an unprecedented type of suffering and darkness, where Father was pleased to withdrawal His felt presence, His grace and His anointing from me for an entire year. I will no doubt tell much of that story in this book, when we get to it, Lord willing.

God’s plan was to one day give me a ministry with significant impact for His kingdom, where thousands from around the world were going to be brought into a life of true surrender and obedience to the Lord Jesus Christ, simply by listening to my voice in a digital recording, a YouTube video, or a humble little discipleship workbook I wrote and self-published called The John 7:17 Challenge.

I believe there are many who will read this book, whom God has plans to bless with a significant ministry. I believe these stories of my faith being tested are Father’s rich blessings of encouragement and understanding to those who are currently being tested, and to those who will be. Please take a moment to consider this my dear brother or sister. Father very well could have chosen to keep these transparent personal examples in my life, a secret, but for such a time as this, I believe He is reaching through to richly bless others who He has called, or will call, to work in His field. I would have felt very blessed to have this much of a detailed autobiographical account of some other servant of the Lord, who had gone before me, in a path similar to mine.

If you wanted me to help find other stories that have this much detail about God’s testing, and yet aren’t too hard to read, I would be hard pressed to find anything beyond a Madame Guyon or George Muller autobiography. George Muller’s autobiography was the only life example I had to hold on to, but his story does not share as many diverse testing’s as you will read in this story. George Muller’s testing seems to have primarily been in the area of finances, and perhaps his character was of such that he didn’t need much more testing than that. This was certainly not the case for the former chief of all fools. I believe God tests us all differently and in accordance with two primary things, His unique plan and will for our life, and our natural character and disposition.

Someone once said, “The bigger the test, the bigger the testimony and the bigger the mess, the bigger the message.” I believe these are mostly true. If you are following in the footsteps of a Joseph or a King David and God has a huge mission for you, it shouldn’t be surprising that you will need to face many years of difficult suffering and testing to prepare you.

If God is going to give you a significant ministry, it will require that He give you a significant amount of spiritual resources and grace through His Spirit. Since God is wise and does not squander His grace, He asks the questions, “Can I trust you with all of this? Will you put this to good use so that I may receive a good return, or will you use this for your own selfish good? Can I give this to you without it causing you the defilement of pride, or will you remember all along that you are absolutely nothing apart from my power? Will you do my will to the end, or will you at some point choose to do your own? Are you truly doing this for my glory, or is your real motive to bring yourself glory?”

I would have thought I knew the answers to all those questions when I got started, but I wasn’t going to truly know until after many years of testing. It is easy to feel faithful in a moment, or in a season, especially when things are going relatively well, but how will we stand up over time through difficult trials? Only the time and tests will tell.

There is no sermon, no book, no amount of Bible study, no amount of memorizing the Word, no Seminary degree, no trips to Israel, no amount of discipleship, and no amount of passionate words that can prove you to be faithful. The only way to prove your faithfulness is to have it repeatedly and painfully tested by trial and fire over many years. Only then, will you and God both know, by experience, if you are truly faithful.

Genesis 22:12 - “Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”

Think about this. That test, where God said He now knew that Abraham feared Him, happened about 25 years or so after God first spoke to Him. Abraham had been tested many times over those years, but this was the big one that God finally acknowledged as faithfulness on Abraham’s part. This shows us that there is no substitute for time under tension in the building and proving of one’s faith. You may feel very filled with faith today, but you have no idea what comes tomorrow or the next day. Will you pass the test? When everything falls apart and you look totally defeated, when there is total darkness around you, when you’ve lost everything, including your dignity, will you keep going…will you keep trusting…will your faith stand? That is how genuine faith is proven.

1 Peter 1:6-7 “Though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proven genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

Not many are willing to pay the full cost to pass some of God’s most intense fires and testing, but there is unspeakable heavenly reward and ministry opportunity for those who do.

God had already given me the vision of a significant impact my work for Him would have, but now it was going to be several more years of difficult testing before I would ever come close to seeing anything that could ever be called “significant”. This too was another part of my testing.

Psalm 105:17-19 NLT – Then he (God) sent Joseph to Egypt, who was sold as a slave. They bruised his feet with fetters and placed his neck in an iron collar. Until the time came to fulfill his dreams (vision), the Lord tested Joseph’s character.

The Great Temptation to Go Beyond God’s Word

God, being a Romans 8:28 God, did not waste any part of the relationship I had with Jill for my training and testing. He not only tested me to see if I would compromise my conscience, by justifying and remaining in sexual immorality, but He was also going to test me at an even higher level to see if I would compromise on the all-sufficiency of His Word.

Judges 2:22 – I will use them to test Israel and see whether they will keep the way of the Lord and walk in it as their forefathers did.

Jill was much more intelligent, and much more well-read than I was, and she was half-way through getting her master’s degree in Christian counseling at Liberty University. Throughout our relationship we often spoke about the problems that plague the human soul, and the things that essentially leave many adults mentally and emotionally wounded all their life—things like childhood abuse, neglect, and abandonment.

Jill had textbook answers, various Psychological methodologies of therapy, citations, and statistics for nearly every issue we discussed, whereas I had only Bible verses and Biblical principles. This led to many conflicts, whereupon she very much valued the contribution she believed Psychology had made to understanding of human thinking and behavior, while I held fast to the notion that the Word of God was all we needed.

2 Timothy 3:16 – All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness, so that the man of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.

My emphasis was always on faith and trusting God for every single need, whereas she felt that was naïve and would say, “Yes, trust God, but also leverage these wonderful techniques and methods that have been proven to help others find emotional and mental health.” She was always very passionate and very convincing of what she believed, and her strongly expressed words of affection for Christ seemed almost to give credibility to her beliefs. Not to mention that so much of what she would share, indeed sounded interesting, even fascinating. I can see how people can get so drawn into Psychology; it’s almost like scuba diving on a coral reef and being filled with anticipation about finding the next unknown life form.

I think people, like myself, who are so driven to make meaning of our lives, and who have experienced such chaotic childhoods, are especially susceptible to the counseling and psychological teachings of men, because they provide temporary pain relief, to our restless and confused hearts. They are telling a story of why and how we are the way we are, but it’s a very different story than what the Bible tells.

Gambling also tells a story; if you don’t quit playing, one day you could be rich. Like a gambling addict who always thinks the next pull of the slot machine, will be the one, we too can become addicted to self-help and Psychological teachings, believing that the answer to all our life problems is just around the next page, or perhaps in the next book. I know people who have wasted years of their lives gambling, and I know people who have wasted years of their lives seeking answers from the self-help section of the book store. Neither of these people are better off than the other. They have both been taken captive by a false story and a false hope. Just as gambling may yield just enough winnings to keep you playing for life, so too the Psychological writings of men will give you just enough help, to keep you “playing” for life.

Colossians 2:8 – See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ.

Here, God is warning Christ followers that if we are not careful to guard against this that we can actually be taken captive by deceptive things like Psychology and Philosophy and not even know it. I remember several times how strong the temptation was to open myself up to some of her Psychological learning and thinking. There is no doubt that godless men have come up with all kinds of very interesting philosophies, that seem to tell a well told story about all our pains and dysfunctions, as well as painting a clear road map to inner healing. However, I continued to remain adamant that God’s Word is the only road map needed for the soul and spiritual life, and it has the only principles that can lead men to life and peace in the Spirit.

The real climax of my test was reached one time during a conversation where Jill stated emphatically, “Michael, I have experience working with Dr.’s of Psychology, and professional counselors and I can tell you that have to meet a person where they are first…you cannot just throw a Bible verse at a man with PTSD…they need more than a Bible to help them…trust me.”

She had finally drawn a line in the sand of her beliefs, which put me to the final test. Would I believe all her experience, her superior intellect, her higher education, her convincing stories and experiences, her textbooks filled with statistics and “facts”? Or, would I take an uncompromising childlike position of faith? Would I keep standing in the faith that believes that the word of God and His grace is all-sufficient, and that there is no need, under any circumstances relating to traumas and anxieties of the soul, for a Christian to go beyond God’s word and Spirit for help?

Psalm 20:7 – Some trust in chariots and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

Psalm 40:4 – Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods [or doctrines of men and devils].

The men of Psychology are proud and many of its founders have literally turned aside to false gods.

Isaiah 2:22 – Stop trusting in man, who has but a breath in his nostrils. Of what account is he?

I tried to explain to Jill over and over that a person can go straight to Jesus Christ in prayer, through faith in His words and person. She had all but stated that Jesus Christ alone is not enough, and that a person needs to be met where they are first, and then you can perhaps introduce the Bible later.

That sounds like it makes total sense, but only to a person who has no real trust in God, and who does not yet know Him at all, or very well. There is no way a person who truly knows God, could ever suggest the need to go to someone or something else first, for matters of the soul.

Jeremiah 17:5 – Cursed is the one who trusts in man, who depends on flesh for his strength and whose heart turns away from the Lord.

You can know “church” and religion, and recommend going to a man for help, but you cannot actually know Christ and make that same recommendation. If a counselor doesn’t actually know the Lord in personal relationship and power (1 Cor 4:20), naturally they will refer their clients to the Psychological philosophies and methods of men, perhaps with a few Bible verses sprinkled along the way, so we can ease our consciences and call it “Christian counseling”. I tried to give Jill an illustration to show her how truly foolish this type of thinking is, with something like the following.

I said, let’s imagine a new story in the gospels about a man who was struggling with PTSD (which by the way is a man-made Psychological label which God Himself would not use), but nonetheless, let’s say there he is standing on the street corners in Nazareth when Jesus is walking through.

He starts crying out like the blind men in Matthew 9:27 to Jesus, “Have mercy on me, Son of David!”. In the actual story of the blind men, they came to Jesus privately and He asked them, “Do you believe that I am able to do this?” They replied, “Yes, Lord” and then He touched their eyes and said, “According to your faith will it be done to you.” And their site was restored. Now, let’s re-write that story to accommodate the popular belief that Jesus and the Bible are just simply not enough, but that instead a man needs professional counseling or therapy for something as tragic as PTSD.

When the man came to the Lord privately, asking to be made well from his PTSD, Jesus said, “I cannot do this. You must first go to the teachings and methods of clever and well-educated men, men who have studied human behavior and who understood your very complicated mental health condition. They will meet you where you are. I am able to heal blind eyes, unstop deaf ears, make lame legs walk, walk on water, feed thousands of people from five loaves and two fish, turn water into wine, heal the sick, cast out demons, forgive sin, change men’s hearts, and raise the dead, but I cannot help you with PTSD. Instead, you must go to men and get your mental illness taken care of first, and then come back and follow me.”

And as ridiculous as this sounds, this is the unbelief of many so called “Christian” counselors, telling themselves, and others, that you can’t just send people straight to undiluted person and teachings of Jesus Christ, but instead you have to first meet them where they are at. If a person does not start with fully trusting Jesus, at the time of their greatest need, why in the world would they ever truly trust Jesus later?

If you are a secular counselor or Psychologist, yes give the person all your latest therapies and pills. However, if you are a true Christian “counselor”, you better show that person how they can go straight to Jesus for help, knowing that He helps “little children” that cannot help themselves.

Matthew 18:3 “I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.”

If a person will not go directly to Jesus, then what good is there, as a “Christian counselor”, in giving him temporary relief but leaving the condition of his spirit unchanged and his eternal destination still as hell?

John 6:27 - “Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you.”

There is no long-term hope for that person. Jesus Christ is the only person that can bring life and peace and His are the only words which lead to true inner healing and eternal life.

John 6:63 – “The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life.”

Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your weary souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Romans 8:6 “The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace.”

And not all can come to Jesus Christ, but if we call ourselves Christians, we had better be at least pointing people to Him as the source of all help and life. If a person cannot hear, that is God’s responsibility, not ours.

John 6:65 – “No one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him.”

Although the temptations were great at times, and the fiery arrows of doubt came, in the end I held stubbornly to my child like faith that the Word of God is all anyone needs. My position was the position of faith, and I became defensive of my Father’s word and the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ. It made me angry to realize how many people call themselves Christian counselors, who then do not fully believe in the power of Christ, and instead have added all kinds of other Psychological principles and worldly counseling methods to their approach.

1 Timothy 4:1 - The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.

Long before I saw Dave Hunt’s much needed and outspoken teachings on the deception of Psychology in the church, and long before I understood the atheist influences of men like Sigmund Freud, or the demonic influences of men like Carl Jung, who admitted to having a spirit guide named Philemon, I had already chosen to believe and take my stand on the Word of God alone.

Men hate the SIMPLE teachings and truths of Christ, and they cannot resist in their pride, but to go beyond the word of God, in order to make followers of themselves. I cannot even glance over the dozens of different psychoanalysis and counseling methods without cringing inside. One day, God will bring the pride and wisdom of the so called “wise” to absolutely nothing!

1 Corinthians 1:19 – For it is written: “I will destroy the wisdom of the wise; the intelligence of the intelligent I will frustrate.” Where is the wise man? Where is the scholar? Where is the philosopher of this age? Has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?

Anytime I have ever gone outside of God’s word, to the tempting teachings of sincere men, it has been a mistake and the results, if any, have always been temporary. If you have no faith, you will need to run to men because God can do nothing for you (Hebrews 11:1,6), but if you have even a mustard seed of faith, then the Lord Jesus Christ is the name you need to call upon in order to be healed, delivered, and saved (Acts 2:21)

The Tantalizingly Sweet Words of Men

Who doesn’t want to better understand why they are the way they are, and why they do what they do? Psychologists and Counselors have filled volumes of books about the human condition and all of it sounds very interesting and fascinating to our natural human desire to make meaning. However, we are followers of Jesus Christ, and we are not to find our world view, life view, or story pieces the same way as the world does. We are not to lean on our own understanding, and we are not to lean on the hollow and deceptive philosophies and wisdom of men. See Proverbs 3:4-6 and Colossians 2:8.

As someone who has suffered for decades to make my life work, and to make sense out of it when it didn’t, I believe I could easily write all kinds of interesting thoughts and wise sounding insights I have, but I resisted that temptation. What I would have to say would be very interesting to the ears and might make perfect sense. Much of it might even be true, but I would be leading you to trust in my own words, rather than in the power of the Spirit and God’s written word.

1 Corinthians 2:1-5 “When I came to you, brothers, I did not come with eloquence or superior wisdom…my message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power, so that your faith might not rest on men’s wisdom, but on God’s power.”

1 Corinthians 4:6 – “Do not go beyond what is written.” Then you will not take pride in one man over against another.

It is not a coincidence that just last night I watched a movie called “The Heart of a Man” on Netflix. The movie was beautifully produced and appears to attempt to change the image of God that many Christian men, trapped in sexual sin, seem to have, through a modern cinematic retelling of the prodigal son story.

If you do not watch this movie with a critical Scriptural eye, testing it to see if it is in accord with sound doctrine, you might come away thinking, “WOW, what a wonderful job they did…so powerful…what encouragement to men trapped in sin…what in depth insight by Dr. Dan Allender into how sexual abuse affects us…this is a great documentary…praise God!

Let me tell you what I saw as I measured it against the whole counsel of the word of God (Acts 20:27). I saw a movie that will no doubt leave many professing “Christian” men feeling that no matter how much they sin, that God is never mad at them, and there is no need to feel shameful about their 7 affairs, even if you stay stuck in your sin for many more years, because God is all love and all mercy.

They are selling an image of God that does not exist, just like the small-town preacher who preaches almost exclusively the wrath of God—they are both wrong. When men try to market God with a new and improved image, they forget three important Biblical principles about how people are attracted to God and saved, and none of them have to do with making movies which emphasize only one side of God.

1. No one can come to Jesus Christ unless God enables them. (John 6:65)

2. We are to be an example to others through our faithful and obedient life (Matthew 5:16, John 13:34-35, Romans 5:19).

3. We are to watch our life and doctrine closely (1 Timothy 4:16)

I don’t know how many tens of thousands, or hundreds of thousands of dollars were spent to make that one movie, but I believe God has made more men truly righteous through one simple life of obedience, than He ever will through a movie like that.

Romans 5:19 – Through the obedience of the one, the many will be made righteous. Not by making a movie depicting God as an old man that could never possibly be angry or judge anybody. That is not true!

This is why the Holy Spirit commanded us in Romans 11:22 to consider both sides of God, his kindness and his strictness. Movies like, “The Heart of Man” and Bible tracts like “Father’s Love Letter” only emphasize the loving side of God, which is heresy. Here again is where some will say, “But Michael, you have to meet people where they are at.” Ok, what did it sound like when John the Baptist met people where they were at in their sin?” Go read Matthew 3:10, 12. What did it sound like when Jesus met sinners where they are at? Go read Matthew 5:30 and Luke 13:3. What did it sound like when Peter met sinners where they were at? Go read Acts 2:38, 40 What did it sound like when Paul met believing sinners where they were at? Go read 1 Corinthians 5:11,13.

You cannot reconcile the majority of what is being produced in the name of Christ today, with the whole counsel of God in Scripture. God never emphasizes only His loving side in Scripture, and as we can see when it comes to sin in the life of believers, He rarely emphasizes his loving side at all, but only warnings and wrath to come.

John 3:36 – He who believes in the Son has eternal life; but he who does not obey the Son will not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him.”

Romans 2:5 – But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed…for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger.

2 Thessalonians 1:8 – He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the majesty of his power.

I don’t remember the words sin, repentance, or hell ever being mentioned in that movie. After John 8:36 was shown on the screen at the very beginning, again without the previous verses 31-35 which show that the requirement to be set free is to obey the teachings of Christ, not to change your image of God into a loving old “Teddy bear” of a man. I don’t recall one single Scripture spoken in the entire film by any of the speakers or testimonials. All you hear are the eloquent and emotional words of men and the name of Jesus Christ is heard perhaps less than six times in an hour and half. Look at what Peter taught about how those who serve God by speaking, should do so.

1 Peter 4:11 – “If anyone speaks, he should do it as one speaking the very words of God.”

An almost 90-minute movie about God, yet with only one incomplete sound bite of what God’s words actually are. How in heaven can God be pleased with a movie about Him, that has no words of His in it? Please, let me ask you, do you really think that God is pleased with a movie about Him where His words have been replaced by the words of men?

We highjack His name, His person, His love, His salvation, His forgiveness, Parts of His character, and yet we set aside practically all of His words, as if they are no longer relevant or working, and instead replace them with new and contemporary thoughts of clever men. Look what Jesus said about this!

John 7:18 – “He who speaks on his own does so to gain honor for himself, but he who works for the honor of the one who sent him is a man of truth; there is nothing false about him.”

John 12:49 – “For I did not speak on my own accord, but the Father who sent me commanded me what to say and how to say it.”

You can have everything God wants you to have, as a child of His, without having to depend on the human wisdom and interesting conclusions and philosophies of men, even “Christian” ones. A great number of times I have read through the books of very respected Christian men, only to conclude that I am already enjoying the result they are teaching, without ever having to read their book, or know any of the neat things they know. I achieved the result as a promise from God, by believing and obeying His words in childlike humility.

Men love complicating things, and not many are willing to set aside their pride and remain as a humble child before the Lord, as Christ commanded in Matthew 18:3-4. No one pays for simple, and it’s hard to make a living unless you become an expert. Instead, men want to appear knowledgeable, respectable, valuable, and useful to others. Knowledge indeed puffs them up in their own eyes and in the eyes of men.

I now know by experience that the Word of God and the grace of God are all we need for any and every issue we face in this life. This is despite the many convincing arguments and temptations that surround us, screaming that it isn’t! But those arguments are in spite of the fact that there are 1,879 years of Christian testimony before Psychology was even invented in the year 1879. This proves that God’s word and the Lord Jesus Christ alone, have been more than enough for every human issue of the soul that ever came up. Why aren’t they now? Did God not know about the problems we would face in our day? Did he not know about PTSD? Did He leave critical help out of his book and now only reveals the secrets to men and women of Psychology?

God spoke of, and even ordained, mental illness for the Israelites if they disobeyed Him, 3,262 years before Sigmund Freud was even born. See Deuteronomy 28:28. The word of God is true and complete and our heavenly Father did not leave out anything that we may need, in order to be spiritually alive and emotionally complete. Men say God’s word is just not enough. What does God say?

Take a look at these beautiful passages which describe the all-sufficiency and power of the Word of the Lord, to change lives.

Psalm 19:7-11 – The law of the Lord is perfect, reviving the soul. The statutes of the Lord are trustworthy, making wise the simple. The precepts of the Lord are right, giving joy to the heart. The commands of the Lord are radiant, giving light to the eyes. The fear of the Lord is pure, enduring forever. The ordinances of the Lord are sure and altogether righteous. They are more precious than gold, than much pure gold; they are sweeter than honey, than honey from the comb. By them is your servant warned; in keeping them there is great reward.

Jeremiah 23:29 “Is not my Word like fire,” declares the Lord, “and like a hammer that breaks a rock in pieces?”

Hebrews 4:12 For the Word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.

I prayed many times that God would help Jill to see the truth, but my prayers remained unanswered because they were not in accordance with God’s will. It is not God’s will to change a person’s mind against their own will, especially those who do not love the truth, or who in the pride of their hearts think they already know the truth.

I have come across a great number of people in my ministry that are absolutely convinced that they know the truth of a certain principle or doctrine. However, when no one is around, in total humility before the Lord, they have never truly cried out to God, confessing their own spiritual blindness and their need for His Spirit to teach them the word. Instead, many people read the Bible, or listen to a sermon, and then believe they have received the truth through their own intellect or cleverness, or someone else’s. We must have the humility of a child, which so few men have, in order to see the truth. This is how millions end up blind and deceived, while claiming they can see.

John 9:39 – Jesus said, “For judgment I have come into this world, so that the blind will see and those who see will become blind [spiritually blind].” Some Pharisees who were with him heard him say this and asked, “What? Are we blind too?” Jesus said, “If you were blind, you would not be guilty of sin; but now that you claim you can see, your guilt remains.”

The Pharisees thought they already knew all that they needed to know. They refused the simplicity of Jesus’s teachings and they refused to come directly to Him. God let’s men choose what they want to believe, and he allows those that do not believe, and those that do not love the truth, to be blinded to the truth.

2 Corinthians 4:4 – The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.

2 Thessalonians 2:10-12 – They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. For this reason, God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness. [Psychology is founded in wickedness]

Ch. 10 Sanctuary with God

This tells the story of an unexpected trip of faith to the Bahamas, to hear God's voice and get clear guidance for my life.